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God, They Don’t Like Me

 There’s a specific kind of sadness that comes from feeling disliked. It’s not always loud. It doesn’t always come with conflict. Sometimes it’s subtle—how people act a little distant, how conversations feel colder than they used to, or how you start noticing that you’re not included the same way anymore. And slowly, a thought forms inside you: “They don’t like me.” That thought can hurt more than anything said out loud. Because it doesn’t just affect how you see others—it starts affecting how you see yourself. You begin to question everything. Did I do something wrong? Is something about me off? Am I the problem? And when those thoughts build up, it can feel like you’re carrying something invisible everywhere you go. In moments like that, it’s easy to turn inward and assume rejection means something is wrong with who you are. But feelings are not always facts. Sometimes people misunderstand each other. Sometimes connections fade for reasons that have nothing to do with worth. Some...

What to Do After a Humiliating Day

 A humiliating day can feel like it sticks to you. Even after it’s over, your mind keeps replaying it. What you said. What you did. How people looked at you. How it felt in the moment. And somehow, it feels bigger at night than it did during the actual day. That’s because embarrassment doesn’t just happen in public—it continues in your thoughts afterward. You start imagining what others are thinking. You assume people are still focused on it when, in reality, most people have already moved on. But your mind hasn’t. So what do you do with a day like that? First, it helps to separate the moment from your identity. A humiliating moment is something that happened. It is not who you are. Everyone has moments they wish had gone differently. Everyone has said something awkward, made a mistake, or felt exposed at some point. It’s part of being human, even if it feels very personal when it happens. Second, your mind will try to exaggerate it. It turns a moment into a story. A story into a p...

Where Do People Get These Jokes From?

 You’ve probably had this moment before. Someone says something funny—so fast, so sharp, so unexpected—and you just sit there thinking: How did they even come up with that? Because it doesn’t feel like something that was “thought through.” It feels instant. Effortless. Like the joke just appeared fully formed in their mind. And then you start wondering: Where do people get these jokes from? The truth is, most jokes don’t come from nowhere. They come from observation. People notice small things others overlook. The way someone reacts. The awkward timing of a situation. The contrast between what was expected and what actually happened. Humor often hides in those little gaps between reality and expectation. A lot of jokes are just life—seen from a slightly different angle. And sometimes, they come from exaggeration. Taking something ordinary and stretching it just enough to make it funny. Not because it becomes unreal, but because it reveals something familiar in a new way. That’s why...

What to Do in Uncertain Times

 Uncertainty has a way of making everything feel unstable. You don’t always see it coming. One moment things feel manageable, and the next, you’re not sure what’s next, or how things will turn out. It can show up in different ways—confusion about the future, pressure from life changing too quickly, or simply the feeling of not having clear answers anymore. And in those moments, the mind often tries to rush ahead. To solve everything. To predict everything. To control everything. But uncertainty doesn’t respond well to control. So what do you do instead? You start smaller. You return to what is in front of you. Uncertain times are often not solved all at once. They are lived through one step at a time. One decision. One day. One breath. That might sound simple, but it’s powerful. Because when the bigger picture feels unclear, focusing on the next right thing keeps you grounded. You don’t need to map your entire future today. You only need to handle what today is asking of you. There...

They keep gossiping about me

 It’s a strange kind of pain— not loud, not obvious, but constant. Knowing that people are talking about you when you’re not there. Wondering what’s been said. Imagining how much of it is true, how much is exaggerated, and how much is just made up. Gossip has a way of making you feel exposed, even when you’ve done nothing wrong. It can make you question yourself. It can make you replay your actions. It can make you feel like you’re always being watched, always being judged, always being discussed. And the hardest part? You can’t control it. You can’t sit in every conversation. You can’t correct every story. You can’t stop people from talking. So it can feel unfair. But here’s something important to remember: gossip says more about the people speaking than the person being spoken about. People often talk because of insecurity, boredom, misunderstanding, or habit. Not because what they’re saying is true, and not because it defines you. Still, knowing that doesn’t always make it hurt ...

God, What Is My Purpose?

 It’s one of the most honest questions you can ask. “God… what is my purpose?” Not in a dramatic way. Not as a big speech. But quietly, in moments when life feels uncertain, when you don’t know where you’re going, or when you feel like everyone else has it figured out except you. Purpose can feel like something far away. Like a single answer you’re supposed to discover—one clear path that suddenly makes everything make sense. But what if it’s not like that? What if purpose isn’t something you find all at once? What if it’s something you grow into? It’s easy to believe that your purpose has to be big. Obvious. Impressive. Something people notice. But most of life isn’t lived in big, visible moments. It’s lived in small, ordinary ones. How you speak to people. How you respond when things are hard. How you keep going when you don’t feel certain. Maybe purpose starts there. Not as one grand answer— but as a series of small, meaningful choices. To be honest. To be kind. To stay when thi...

Jesus, Should I Take Medication?

 It’s not always an easy question to ask. “Jesus, should I take medication?” It can feel heavy. Confusing. Even a little uncomfortable. Because part of you might wonder— If I have faith, shouldn’t that be enough? Does needing help mean I’m weak? Am I doing something wrong if I can’t just pray this away? These thoughts can sit quietly in your mind, making the decision feel bigger than it already is. But maybe the question isn’t about faith versus help. Maybe it’s about understanding what healing really looks like. Faith was never meant to replace wisdom. And trusting God doesn’t mean ignoring the ways help is available. There’s a common idea that strength means handling everything alone. But that’s not the kind of strength Jesus showed. He met people in their need. He didn’t shame them for it. He didn’t tell them to pretend they were fine. He responded with care. So asking whether you should take medication isn’t a failure of faith. It’s a sign that you’re paying attention to your w...